Gearedup has passed away

[FUZO]

I AM SO SORRY.MY FAMILY WILL PRAY. HES IN GODS HANDS NOW

[DrtyJrzyGuy]

Originally posted by estanozolol
No worries brother. We will be taken care of.

just throwing the idea out there, i have a server, with enough web space through my fathers company that I think we could post this on if we needed a temporary home. ..

[swellin]

After reading this whole thread, I have too many thoughts in my head to single out a few and write a coherent post, but here is what I’ve got.

First, every time I spoke with GU, it was uplifting. He had a way of making you feel better…. even if you were only asking a question. Where else do you get a personalized PM from the owner when you join? Tough luck bro. You will be missed. RIP.

NewGirl, that was one of the best posts I have read in a long time. While I was thinking something along those lines, there is no way I could have said it so clearly, thoroughly, or succinctly. Your post should give all of us pause.

Bdtr, you seem to be getting singled out after NG’s post. I have to admit that I thought of you first, too. There are lots of folks on here who consider you a friend, and we don’t want to hear anything like this about you. But wait, we need not focus our attention on someone else…look in the mirror. I know that NG’s post applies to me too. I’m not a big steroid user, but I do take risks.

As for the pain medicine addiction…that really sucks! I was in the early stages of a pain medicine addiction 2 years ago, before my shoulder surgery. It is very easy to do! Now I look back at the amounts I have taken and cringe. It is soooooo easy to get hooked. Unfortunately, injury is something we will all deal with…specially folks like us...hardcore gym folk. Pay heed to the warnings given here by GU and BJ.

We only get one chance at life.

[newgirl]

Nice post Swellin. And my post does apply to us ALL. I did not have our Bdtr in mind when I wrote it -- but I am surrounded on thet net and in my life -- with some wonderful men and women. We are so immersed in this culture that NONE of us often takes a big enough step back to see what we are doing.

We talk about it here -- it becomes quite casual and a part of our everyday life -- that we forget what we do is on the edge. Just like a doctor who performs hernia operations --- to that doctor it is very common and usual. For the patient -- it is painful and requires care. Same thought lines here.

So -- I did not single our bdtr -- but I am pointing a finger at myself, my husband and my friends here -- and on other boards both men and women. I actually took this step back this past summer myself. Took about 5 or more months off cycle and totally changed up what my next one will be like....instead of going for it big -- I changed my mind with the help of my own soul searching but also with the help of some really great people at FM. But I felt this was an appropriate time to post it.

[Dimensionx]

OMG, GU and I had talked in the past about them, I have been there and we had several discussions about pain meds and benzo's. I told him then, and meant it that if he EVER needed a shoulder or someone to talk to to call me, gave my number as well. We talked back and forth about the evil addiction, I explained I had to go through methadone treatment to get off of it through a private shrink who was kind enough to actually help me so that I didn't have to deal with a methadone clinic.

This affects me very deaply. My brother was in a car accident a little over a month ago as well, was hooked on herion and Oxy's. I had been battling this with him, trying to be there through thick and then. He broke his back, lucky he lived, then he went to jail, and I finnaly got him to commit himself to a treatment center.

Guys, I don't really know what to say. I feal very personally attached even though I hardly knew GU, I knew what he was going through, and had tried to be there as someone who had been there before.

I had left the board for a long time while recovering, from both a neck injury AND dealing with my addiction. The day I returned I had asked GU about how he was doing with the opiates and if he was getting by alright. He was a bit short and said he didn't mess with them anymore, I was SOOO glad to hear that.

Now this, I'm am litterally in tears simply because I understand the fucked up twisted addiction. It is evil, it creeps up on you, no one really realizes it until it is too late. Those that do realize it (like myself and GU) end up either justifying it or just trying to subdue it to get along with life.

I had sincerely hoped that he had kicked this as I have. All I have left to say is that GU and his family are in my prayers, and that should I ever have the temptation to do another opiate again he will be there for me, along with the other 5 friends I've lost to this addiction to stop me.

If ANYONE ever needs help with a problem such as this please let me or someone else know, I will help anyway I can. All I can offer is advice and suggestions on how to get help, I can also relate to what you might be going through and I don't look down or judge because of an addiction to anything.

R.I.P. GearedUp, Thank you for being there for me without even knowing it.

Shawn

[DiamondBling]

This is Unbelievable.........

[JENNY]

This is just awful. I'll say a prayer for all his friends and family. I'm still in shock haven't been on in a while and i come back to read this. This is so sad. I feel horrible.

[Monstar]

My prayers go out to him and his family

[rugbythug]

I knew GU from FB a long time ago. One of many. I will greave for him on this holiday. I just hope that he had a Personal Realationship with the Lord.

[aky]

RIP bro...

[Chick]

Condolences from me and the crew at anabolicforum.

This is very very sad.

[MYRICK]

MAN JUST GOT HOME AND SAW THIS ITS A SHAME HE WAS A GREAT GUY R.I.P. BROTHA

[massjunkie]

My condolences to his family,friends, and anybody who he's ever come in contact with and shared his wisdom with

[shiko24]

I have been a memeber here since April but spend most of my time at another board but I was a member at steroids101 befor it was hacked where I met Gearedup he gave me a lot of great info and helped me every time I asked anything I did not know him as well and a lot of others but he was a great guy to know I was very hurt and sad when I found out of his passing and thought I would stop by and say goodbye to a great man !

RIP Gearedup I am glad to say I knew you !

shiko24

[instynct999]

Holy f'in shit i just heard about this!
I was talking to him literally fuckin minutes before that and NO indication of anything like that---i am blown away

we were talking about a project that we had been looking to do together and had put aside for a while and he was like "let's do this shit already' (to paraphrase)

Damn--

Just leaves ya shaking your head

I wish he would have let me in more on his problem and have helped him in some way
thought he had shit under control but ...well i guess hindsight 20/20
RIP BRO