Is it possible?......

[BABY1]

Re: Is it possible?......

Current update.
I tested the waters with DC training. Im not sure my body is going to handle it clean.
Back to normal training.
up to 215. Still a bit chubby...

I have been relatively strict on my diet.
Chicken and rice.
French toast and eggs 2-3 times a week.
BIG cheat once a week.

ice cream + diet coke float 2x weekly.

Im really wanting to run some HGH but I dont think itll be very good for the old ticker.

Sounds good!!! Are you making sure you get some good fats in as well? They are very important.

[Michelle Hayden]

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How is your cholesterol? Dont be so down on yourself..

[BRUNDEL]

Re: Is it possible?......

Current update.
I tested the waters with DC training. Im not sure my body is going to handle it clean.
Back to normal training.
up to 215. Still a bit chubby...

I have been relatively strict on my diet.
Chicken and rice.
French toast and eggs 2-3 times a week.
BIG cheat once a week.

ice cream + diet coke float 2x weekly.

Im really wanting to run some HGH but I dont think itll be very good for the old ticker.

[BRUNDEL]

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THanks bro.
The truth is......I know. It took me 10 years to get where I was. WIth AAS.
If I thought I could safely use gear I would. I think the potential for a hormonal imbalance to cause an arrythmia is high enough to indicate I should not or could not with relative safety.
I dont think Ill be in the same shape I was ......its becoming apparent the strength is not gonna be there. On some exercises....literally half the weight feels heavy.
But IM not giving up.
Bodybuilding taught me alot as a person.
Discipline
dedication
sacrifice
Drive
Patience.
I love forward progress. I love beating my log book.
The good news is Im stil not up to speed so my log book will see significant increases in weight. In addition, I know this will equate to muscle size if nutrition and calories are sufficient.
Im already starting to grow back into myself.
Yesterday 2 guys at my gym were saying "how the hell do you grow so fast.....your already bigger than us again". This really gets me excited.
I was looking at myself in the mirror and I have body dismorphia. I see skinny and fat....even at full size fully geared.
But I was at the gym yesterday and looking at myself just criticizing everything I saw and those 2 guys came up and started training shoulders next to me...I dwarfed them. Weird how our brains work.
I saw those 2 guys the day before and was thinking how much bigger they were than me....

Im never gonna be satisfied. but Im gonna keep pushing forward. Ill post some more pics when I feel like progress has been made.
It took alot to post those befores.

[unclem]

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my opinion is that i have severe kidney disease , but i still keep using the gear, and, will continue. if u think u can get to where you were it wont happen, but i say this as i tried it and u might get the weight but ull get some muscle back but in no way can u get to where u were on gear its impossible. iam just being straight up brother and i mean no harm. but i give you credit for trying and going at it clean. i wish you the best brother.

god bless

[BRUNDEL]

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First day of DC training.
legs and shoulders. I missed this. I just cant stand normal training.......3 -4 sets.....of the same old shit...1bp per day.
DC is more fast paced.
Progress is WAY faster.
Its more fun because your mixing bodyparts.
You get fuking strong as hell.

Its like a found a long lost friend.

[BRUNDEL]

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So I busted out the food scale and the rice cooker.
Im gonna start measuring and pre prepping my meals.
Im already gaining more BF% than I like. The weight is coming fast but so is the belly.
So far not really any cardio.

And......

Im thinking about starting the DC again. My body responds best to Low volume, high intensity, multiple times per week for every BP.
Im not very strong yet so I have a ton of room for progress. Im gonna start slow and low and track progress.

Diet it gonna be starting at 2lbs chicken and 8 cups rice + 8oz almonds per day plus a big snack.

[Anabolic5150]

You'll get there, I'd bet on it.

[BRUNDEL]

Re: Is it possible?......

Arms still a couple inches smaller.
Everything smaller by a good portion but my shape is slowly coming back.
I think once I dial in my diet and really get serious things will shape up. If I can get up to like 220 @ 10% Ill be happy.

[BRUNDEL]

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Youll notice the defibrillator above my right pec.

[BRUNDEL]

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Today 2 people at the gym said I look like Im growing again.....

I normally take pics a few times a week to assess progress and weakness.
Well I stopped because the pictures depressed me but......I have one from before I started training again.
2 meals a day.
bf% pretty high.
Skinny fat.

And one from yesterday. Non training day so I wasnt pumped up but at least you can see Im making progress. I still look terrible but Im gaining size and losing bodyfat and IM natural.
I trained shoulders tonight and while IM weaker my injured shoulder is beginning to be able to take some weight. I went up to 35lbs DB on laterals and forwards with a 60lb DB. (single DB for both arms)

Here it is.
3 weeks progress.
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[Anabolic5150]

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Pathetic? I doubt that, you are just being critical on yourself because you have very high standards. But again, look at what you are overcoming. Man Bro, most people would just sit on the couch and give up, but you are a fighter and an inspiration.

I'm sitting here thinking man I want to get back to the gym after my surgery, and then it dawns on me, if Brundel can get back after what he went through then why the hell am I sitting here. You inspire me Brother, every day. You have my respect 100%, just remember, one day at a time.

[BRUNDEL]

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THanks
Im gonna keep pushing forward. I thought about adding a picture so people can see how pathetic I loook.

[BABY1]

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Apparently gaining the weight isnt gonna be the issue......Im gaining too fast.
So IM gonna have to start a strict diet.
Bought a nice new food scale and some tupperwear.
Gonna start pre prepping my daily meals.
GOnna cut out the ice cream shakes every night. I started these to keep on weight when I was down. Now Its really packin on the lbs.
up to 203lbs but puffier than I want.
I was normally no more than 7%bf year round. Now Im probably 10-12. I dunno. I can see abs and veins in my arms and legs but Im just too soft for me so...
Gaining will likely be slower but at least I wont be a fatass.

Glad to hear you are gaining! You are doing great!

[BRUNDEL]

Re: Is it possible?......

Apparently gaining the weight isnt gonna be the issue......Im gaining too fast.
So IM gonna have to start a strict diet.
Bought a nice new food scale and some tupperwear.
Gonna start pre prepping my daily meals.
GOnna cut out the ice cream shakes every night. I started these to keep on weight when I was down. Now Its really packin on the lbs.
up to 203lbs but puffier than I want.
I was normally no more than 7%bf year round. Now Im probably 10-12. I dunno. I can see abs and veins in my arms and legs but Im just too soft for me so...
Gaining will likely be slower but at least I wont be a fatass.