Goodbye Honey and Max

[horsepwr]

Re: Goodbye Honey and Max

THIS HAS BEEN WAY HARDER THAN I could have imagined. Its surreal. Like a bad dream. Such remorse about selling them. Am up at 3 AM AND IM crying and would give anything to have them back...even wonder if I called the guy and ask him if he wants to sell them back to me. Naw, I couldnt do that. I just hope and pray that they are happy, I knew they were happy here. They had free run of five acres. they were never locked up..they had freedom to do what they wanted to do. I would go out everymorning and hug them and talk to them. I miss that sooooo much.

That must be so hard to try to cope with. I doubt anyone on here can even come close to understanding your situation and the pain, stress, and other emotions you're having to deal with right now.

See, most everybody has lost an animal that they feel is like their child or children, but every situation is unique. That's why I say i couldn't imagine what you're going through, because I have never went through what you are right now. That is a very uncommon situation for most. We, people that usually just have dogs or cats, know that we'll most likely out-live our pet, but your situation is indeed one of individuality that deserves respect in that way.
Like I said. I have no idea what you're feeling. I can't relate. Your situation is something I've never had to cope with so I'm not about to say, "I know just how you feel"...because one thing that I do know about hard times like this is how annoying it is to hear "I know how it is"...you just gotta keep in mind that people are just trying to help.

I hate to hear that it's weighing on you so heavy.
Can you go visit them?
I know it might be soon for that, but when you're ready, are they in driving distance where you can go talk to them and see how they're living?

[Dzone]

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^thanks horse. Yes they arent far away at all. bout 15 minutes away. Finally talked today to the guy who came a nd got them monday.Honey is already mating with the stallion and Max, the thoroughbred, went to a home with 8 horses and the guy is president of some saddle club. Says that of all his horses, Max is the friendliest and most gentle of them all. That makes me so proud because Max wasrescued from a horrible situation without food or water and his owner was dead. He had been raced and was really abused. Terrified of humans. Wouldnt get near people for weeks after I brought him to my house. He became a real people horse living here. I spent hundreds of hours just being out in the pasture with him and honey. Thats what I miss the most is the great friendship we had developed over the years. The rapport was very unique and rare.. We were just so connected. May sound strange but it was like a spiritual bond. Gosh I miss them so much that my stomach hurts at times during the day.. Like a deep gnawing pain deep in my stomach. Like there is this huge hole in my life now. I walk outside and walk across the empty pastures.It is really painful and very lonely.. I really thought I had prepared myself for this, but it has really hit me harder than I expected.. Just the sense of loss. Its like breaking up with your girlfriend, then wanting her back.. Its on your mind all day long and you fight back the tears when you want to cry. Sometimes when Im alone, the tears can really pour.

Was selling them the right thing to do? I really dont know. I just know it hurts. If I got a call and someone said, "Would you like us to bring your horses back? I would say YES!!! in a heartbeat."
Sometimes we have to make sacrifices in life to accomplish what we are called to do. I have a mission to fulfill in my life and maybe this wasnt the ideal time for me to have these horses. But if they called and asked me if I wanted to have them back, I couldnt possibly say no. I dont think that will happen. Those horses were extraordinary. I hope someone is loving them as much as I do.

The show must go on.

[Ozzy]

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Yea those are some good looking horses my friend! Hey...if that little girl in the pic with the horse is your daughter , be glad to have her and that the wife aint coming to take her!! Thats when your world is coming to an end bro....trust me. I'm still not the same!!