Yea i totally understand where you are coming from Josh... My last cycle was test/dbol/eq and i gained like 5 lbs and everyone was like damn you are getting big...But i really didnt gain anyweight...I went down in b/f also...This shit is weird but oh well... Time for some IGF-1
"Up to a point a man's life is shaped by environment, heredity, and the movements and changes in the world around him. Then there comes a time when it lies within his grasp to shape the clay of his life into the sort of thing he wishes to be. Only the weak blame parents, their race, their times, lack of good fortune, or the quirks of fate. Everyone has it within his power to say, 'This I am today; that I will be tomorrow.' The wish, however, must be implemented by deeds."