I Should be relived but I'm not.
I have been dating this woman for a long, long time. Almost a decade. She was everything on my list when we started dating, in fact I was paranoid because I did not have what it took then to expect the type of woman that was on my list. She had all the great mother charachteristics and was hot. (wow!) Well long/short she, over 4 years turned into my "must not have" list. And I mean everything on the list. She started lying, drinking, sneaking and more lying, it was a nightmare. So I decided no more! I told her to get lost but nicely and didnt see her for awhile Then I stopped by to do her a favor and ended up giving in to my hormones :( . She tells me right after orgasm, and I mean right after, that she stopped taking the pill 2 months ago! She took the pill for 7 damn years! I tried to get her to stop taking it several times but she wouldnt, and now she decides. SO for the last week and a half I have been sweating bullets. Then she tells me were clear and I feel this weird sense of loss. WTF is that all about? You hit your 30's and you turn retarded.
I should be elated that I didnt make a child with this woman who I cannot trust but instead feel sort of meloncholy. What gives and why do i feel the need to fix all the women that have been in my life?
Anyway, someone should slap me for sleeping with her.
