Originally Posted by
trip
You're posts, and the things you are honest about would seem like DEPRESSION.
ADHD, if I remember correctly, a year or so ago were'nt you starting a new business, and also, no health insurance
High Stress leads too High Cortisol. The High Cortisol supresses you're natural testosternone, and thus you slowly slowly slowly drift lower.
This is the bodies natural reaction to protecting itself. The mind, especially ADHD one, can go into overdrive and nevah evah stop. That high stress destroys the body, so too stop the brain from destroying the body, ie, good old BODY HEAL THYSELF, it pumps up the cortisol.
This slows you down so that you're are physically forced to rest and re-evaluate.
Know it is tough, yet, this is profesional level stuff, find a good one who has skills in this area. Meds do work wonders, and then help with the internal stuff you've been struggling with.
Good Luck, not an easy road, a good one in the long run, the worst in the short run