Addiction

[macattack]

TweetThis is my first post here and i love your forum here Bro's.

I happened across it a few days back and saw the recent deaths of several good Bro's none of which i happen to know personally but trust me i have lost alot of good friends because of there addiction to substances and that includes alcohol.

I am 3 years sober from Crack cocaine and alcohol i spent over 20 years abusing these drugs and spent countless years locked up in some sort of facility because of what i did to support my addiction and countless rehabs, detox's, hospitals finally 3 years ago i was very near death, probably withing hours or at least days of dieing i decided that i would try ONE MORE TIME and if i wasnt ready now i never would be again because i NEW i was going to die.

Sometimes thats the only incentive that saves some of us, most are hopeless but i am proof that not all of us are, and i was a junky of the worst kind, i wasn't a good person on the outside but inside i was sick, lonely, afraid of everything and just generally a loser.


Well that all changed that day i decided to TRY and beat this thing that was all over me, not just a monkey but a fucken GORILLA was on top of me, now atheist may not like what i say next but thats ok i got down on my knees and begged for help i begged for whatever in the name of God would give me strength to fight this thing, i wanted it, i needed it, i needed help in the worst way and i begged for it, and it happened it wasn't easy the first year there were days that were so hard to fight off the temptation to use, things came up that upset me, i was confused frustrated and LOST in this world.

Anyhow BOOM 3 years later i'm still clean, may not be the most sober mind you'll ever meet but i am alive, WHY? i have no fucken idea why maybe for this for me to tell others that you do not have to DIE from addiction you can live you can make it one day at a time just like me, i am a SUCCESS to day as long as i stay clean, i have a wonderful job, i have THings today that i have never had, people in my life now no longer worry about me most are more GREATFUL then i am i think, i put them thru so much shit especially my own mother, how sad what i did to my mother just makes me want to bawl my fucken eyes out right now man........

Lastly it is this sport that helped me regain my health and these types of boards who Teach me how to enjoy fitness, body building and good health (Except when i'm cycling then i am doing bad things) but anyhow we're not Saints

God Bless you Bro's and Gals i wish everyone good health, if anyone EVER wants help from me i'll be there for you .

Macattack

[jack hust]

Tweetwelcome to fg bro

[trip]

TweetDefinitely a big success story, writing a page everday.

Welcome aboard your words of wisdom will always be needed.

[leankid]

TweetAwesome story, I've battled it too, brother! By the grace of God have I beat it!

[Auriflex]

TweetGood post!!! And welcome!!

[FUZO]

TweetWELCOME TO FG. GOOD JOB

[macattack]

TweetThanks too everyone for the warm welcome, this was something i had been thinking about these last few days since reading some of whats posted here and i'm thinking about the guys who may be stuck or addicted that are still living, i've never been a pill user but i have done heroine and got very addicted to it and that was a physical addiction to boot and its hard to kick opiates the body starts depending on them so your not only fighting the mental addiction but a physical one also.

A cousin of mine on the East coast runs a rehad where the young people all are addicted to Oxycotin there all under 18 there i believe, so this drugs running it's course.

I am addicted to ibuprophen, the first step is to admit powerlessness there i just did LOL......

Thanks again good folks here....

[jsjs24]

TweetWelcome and stay healthy bro.

[Klash]

TweetWelcome bro!

[IntensityX]

TweetWelcome

[BigE22]

TweetWelcome to the board bro....and by the way props on telling your story...it takes major balls to say what you said......

[digital]

Tweetwelcome,

great post,very true and although i have never been through it i have watched how much courage and determination it took from some of my closest friends.well done,hats off to you



cheers

[Luftdude]

TweetHowdy and welcome to FG

LD

[THE JUICE]

Tweetwelcome bro

[Berzerker]

TweetWelcome bro. I think most everyone goes through some kind of addiction/compulsion. Just part of the human condition. Not a lot of people live to tell what you've been through. It's made you stronger, for sure. I went a few rounds with alcohol in the past and got my ass kicked, lost my job, home, all that... had to move back in with my fricken Mom (love u Mom!) . It's all about moderation now. If you get the bodybuilding bug, it can become a powerful habit, but it is one I believe that is FAR MORE REWARDING than any other habit you can have IMO. You will notice how much better you look and feel, and people really respond positively. Your confidence will soar, and you will bounce back from any disappointment. I've got a great life now with a successful career. I attribute a LOT to the discipline and benefits of bodybuilding. It's the best sport in the world and the best decision/compulsion I EVER had.