And it does make me feel better to see support from perfect strangers. I may come off as a whack job right now, but I'm just being honest with myself right now. I wish what I have gone through and what I am currently going through on no person because the weight of these issues could easily burry me. Having the support of my wife and family and hearing things like this make me push harder. I thank you guys with the bottom of my heart. It does mean alot whether you believe it or not.