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      Not sure if this is the right place to post but I dont have alot of people to discuss this fully with because of the subject matter.

      So been with the wife for almost 10 years and dated about 5 years prior to that.

      We have had a hard relationship. Alot of it due to my moodiness.

      Long story short. Been a jerk in our relationship. I mean I am good most of the time, but I am type A personality and would blow up over stupid things throughout our relationship, then once we had a child that of course put more tension due to us having difference in raising her. We both love her dearly.

      So anyways a couple of years ago my wife caught me "hooking friends up with rat juice" . We went through counseling and I promised not to ever mess with them again.

      Well since that time frame I have worked on my anger and controlling it. (note I have never hit my wife just yelled, which is still hurtful and I always regret it)

      About 3-4 years ago I got on my adrenal supplements and TRT and my blowups were less frequent and then after the above incident I worked even harder on controlling my blowups. Our relationship improved but still occasionally would have arguments.

      Well a couple of months ago she found my small stash and of course was upset. The past two months have been really hard. Going through all the emotions, sad, angry, confused, etc.

      I have done alot of soul searching and do accept my responsability for my issues. I honestly think it is a "heart" issue. Focus to much on my needs and opinions and fail at understanding others. I see it in my work and friendships as well. I am working on it. I know some of you are not religious but I contacted my pastor and spoke with him. I am trying to work on praying every day, doing devotions, and changing my mindset. Very hard but even if my marriage fails I want this part of me to succeed so I can prosper in my relationships with my daughter, future person I date or wife if we stick to together, and clients and coworkers.

      At the same time still not sure what to do with my relationship with my wife. We both are to the point that something has to change, because we can't keep doing this.

      Her main issues with me are "rat juice" usage and my moods (note: I guess I can be bipolarish. At times I am super sweet and patient and other times blow up at the smallest things )
      Her other issue is she wants another child. Before we got married I told her I really didn't want children but agreed to have one for her. No longer than a few months after the first one she wanted another one and that has been a big argument ever since. Dont get me wrong at times I want another one but always had certain issues I will mention below that stopped me from wanting one.

      My issues have been her family is very challenging to be around. I come from a quiet family and her family is on top of each other screaming, yelling, TV blasting, etc. Plus a mentally ill chronic alcoholic brother that drinks handsanitzer, steals, lies, etc.
      She has no organizational skills and house has become very messy. In fairness she has a hard job and keeps our daughter as soon as she gets off work until I get home which is late. Also I am good at organizing and cleaning and have realized I can get off my ass and do more. I already did alot but I try and do more. I grew up with a mom that was super organized and I guess I held this to a normal value.

      Money - I am a very frugal individual and save everything. I come from a family who had great paying jobs but still lived life meagerly. She on the other hand comes from a one income family who spends it as soon as they have it. Grant it she does better than most females, at least that is what friends tell me, but then she gives our daughter whatever she wants, buys special meals for her every night, etc.

      The final thing is raising our daughter. My wife is a people pleaser. I on the other hand am not. Lots of conflict on raising our daughter. I dont know if she has every disciplined our child, putting it all on me. But then she gets upset if I am to harsh or spank. Also they pretty much have slept together forever and I sleep in another bed. Finally our daughter stays up with us until we go to bed. (9PM-10PM). I strongly disagree with this for numerous reasons but again my wife wont battle our daughter and never believed when she was a baby about crying it out, etc.

      I have missed intimacy and time with my wife for almost 6 years now. Sex life is not what I would like it to be (about once a week or every other week). For some on TRT this is not sufficient.

      So we both have changes that need to occur. I need more patience and to communicate better. She needs to work with me on the budget and learn to say no to our daughter.

      Been some talks with lots of crying on both parts. I find myself really depressed at times and other times optimistic about the future. My wife is a wonderfully kind, loving, and forgiving person. A strong christian and I love her for all those things. I am very attracted to her even though she has put some weight on. I honestly do not desire another woman but do wish we had more initimacy.

      She needs to be spoken to kinder and I need to show more restrain, understanding, and patience.

      I am so confused and scared of the upcoming months. We really do not have the money to try a separation. I think she would like to try that, but again we don't have an extra $1K a month to do that. She is going to start seeing a counselor that our church is kindly paying for. I have access to 6 free couseling sessions via my work that I think I will take advantage of.

      I know this was just a bunch of rambling but welcome any advice from those in long term relationships and that have divorced, or maybe divorced and then gotten back together.

      I can be a jerk but I can also be a very loving person and have always been a team player when it comes to work around the house. I give my wife massages and always have tried to shown her love and affection.

      So confused.

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      Brother in my opinion you have done the right thing. I hope you both go to church together. God wants us to be happy. So get to church to pray and thank him for all that you have. If you guys go to church are honest and want to fix the minor issues you have. Your going to be fine. Your wife is a gift from God just as you are to her so treat each other as such. I honestly think you are doing the right thing, and know that you and your wife will be in my prayers.

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      Quote Originally Posted by thudgens96 View Post
      Brother in my opinion you have done the right thing. I hope you both go to church together. God wants us to be happy. So get to church to pray and thank him for all that you have. If you guys go to church are honest and want to fix the minor issues you have. Your going to be fine. Your wife is a gift from God just as you are to her so treat each other as such. I honestly think you are doing the right thing, and know that you and your wife will be in my prayers.

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      Thanks man. I needed to hear that. We have some issues to resolve, but we both need to work on it together. Appreciate the kind words and prayers.

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      I agree brotha, you are doing the right thing. Keep in church and when times get tough, look to God. He will always provide. It sounds like you two are actually the perfect compliment to each other. Of course there are things to work on, but it really sounds like you both provide each other with balance. Where your scale dips a little this way, hers dips a little that way and together you create a great balance. My fiance and I are truly opposites and it has caused great conflicts over the years, but after many long talks (as well as arguments and crying on both sides) we've come to realize why God put us together. Where I fall short, she picks me up and vice versa. These differences that have caused us many great arguments are only differences when we're not working as a team. When we are working as a single unit, these differences are actually strengths. They create balance when our two extremes come together.

      Keep working on it brotha. Things will comes together. Will be keeping you two in my thoughts and prayers.
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      try everything you can think of. after almost 8 yrs with my ex it just was not meant to be. but i think we are both happier not together and i am a better father because there are no more arguments to distract my attention away from my son. and if an argument does arise when i drop him off after a visitation and it gets to a point where no resolution is going to come of the bullsh!t i just hop in my ride and drive home. i do hope things work out and you stay a family, i really do ... but don't despair if they don't. life does goes on.

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      Faith and.god.are.the.key brother

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      brother, i wish you the best and that you find peace whatever happens. I know it can feel like your heart is is crushed, but be strong and continue to work positively and I pray only good will come to you
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      I will share some advice I was given. Kind of hard to grasp onto, at first, but when you understand it makes sense.

      Take care of yourself first

      Marriage- second

      Children- third

      If there is work to be done within oneself, it will impact the other 2 until that work is done. Together "you" is a great (team) marriage which in turn sets the foundation for your child. Now if you dont feel you are both on the same page, keep working on yourself, and things will fall in to place where ever that may be. I am like your wife in a sense that I have put others before myself for my whole life. Its like starting all over when you lose yourself. Its all kinds of things. Keep talking and take it all in whether its hard to hear or not. You put a lot out here...that's is good and just as important to put everything out there to your wife. Oh and another thing, never e to proud to reach out for help, I know that is a hard. I wish you all the best and know we are here to listen
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      It's very difficult to try and justify gear to those who not only don't use it but also people who don't train. Does she hit the gym too? Ultimately, your health is a high priority. I also have kids and thankfully, spilt from their Mother. Bottom line is how much scrutiny are you willing to take over YOUR health and longevity and does it end there? To me, I'd rather be single and in shape to defend my Daughters everything vs being "mothered" and smothered. That's just me. It seems like you're all in to make things work and that's very commendable. I'd say drop to a cruise dose, skip tren, anadrol and all the mood blasters if that matters.


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      Quote Originally Posted by Yohimbe View Post
      I agree brotha, you are doing the right thing. Keep in church and when times get tough, look to God. He will always provide. It sounds like you two are actually the perfect compliment to each other. Of course there are things to work on, but it really sounds like you both provide each other with balance. Where your scale dips a little this way, hers dips a little that way and together you create a great balance. My fiance and I are truly opposites and it has caused great conflicts over the years, but after many long talks (as well as arguments and crying on both sides) we've come to realize why God put us together. Where I fall short, she picks me up and vice versa. These differences that have caused us many great arguments are only differences when we're not working as a team. When we are working as a single unit, these differences are actually strengths. They create balance when our two extremes come together.

      Keep working on it brotha. Things will comes together. Will be keeping you two in my thoughts and prayers.
      I do agree that opposites do attract and for good reason to compliment each other. Again I have to work on communicating with her in a soft calm way and come together with a solution to our issues. Thanks for the kind words.

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      Quote Originally Posted by DethKlok View Post
      try everything you can think of. after almost 8 yrs with my ex it just was not meant to be. but i think we are both happier not together and i am a better father because there are no more arguments to distract my attention away from my son. and if an argument does arise when i drop him off after a visitation and it gets to a point where no resolution is going to come of the bullsh!t i just hop in my ride and drive home. i do hope things work out and you stay a family, i really do ... but don't despair if they don't. life does goes on.
      Thanks for sharing man. I do agree with what you say. I am going to get myself right and if thing work out great, but if we continue down this path then for the sake of both of our happiness and our daugthers it would be best to separate. However I do want to try and make this work and come together as a team and work together.

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      Quote Originally Posted by BABY1 View Post
      I will share some advice I was given. Kind of hard to grasp onto, at first, but when you understand it makes sense.

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      Marriage- second

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      If there is work to be done within oneself, it will impact the other 2 until that work is done. Together "you" is a great (team) marriage which in turn sets the foundation for your child. Now if you dont feel you are both on the same page, keep working on yourself, and things will fall in to place where ever that may be. I am like your wife in a sense that I have put others before myself for my whole life. Its like starting all over when you lose yourself. Its all kinds of things. Keep talking and take it all in whether its hard to hear or not. You put a lot out here...that's is good and just as important to put everything out there to your wife. Oh and another thing, never e to proud to reach out for help, I know that is a hard. I wish you all the best and know we are here to listen
      Thanks Baby. Last time I went through marriage issues I believe you said you ultimately have to accept who this person is. I think you said something like that and that did stick with me and has helped me. The words you just spoke also meant alot to me and gave me some things to think about. Your right. First myself, then my marriage, and then child. Thank you so much.

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      Quote Originally Posted by Pellethead View Post
      It's very difficult to try and justify gear to those who not only don't use it but also people who don't train. Does she hit the gym too? Ultimately, your health is a high priority. I also have kids and thankfully, spilt from their Mother. Bottom line is how much scrutiny are you willing to take over YOUR health and longevity and does it end there? To me, I'd rather be single and in shape to defend my Daughters everything vs being "mothered" and smothered. That's just me. It seems like you're all in to make things work and that's very commendable. I'd say drop to a cruise dose, skip tren, anadrol and all the mood blasters if that matters.


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      She clearly doesn't understand. Her main issue with it is the legal aspect of it. She does exercise but does things like Shawn T and stuff like that. Before our child I use to train her and that was great because we got to bond. I miss those days. Now she won't even ask advice from me and if I ever critique or recommend something exercise wise she seems put off by it. So I try and not discuss it with her unless she brings it up. That is sad as I work in this field and it is my life and has been for 15 years.

      In terms of usage I am on legal TRT and really not trying to be a bodybuilder just the best I can be. Plan on just using safer compounds if I continue on with it like deca, npp, equipose, var, etc.

      We shall see. Thanks for sharing your experience with me. I do appreciate it man.

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