TweetOH boy you hit the right sista here. Are you a book reader? I know you go on FB? there are so many pages that give positive affirmations daily. look at them instead of all the crap on FB. If you like a lot of things on them , your newsfeed will end up full of them and this is what you will see mostly. You have to replace negative words with positive. say them over and over, out loud, in your head whatever it may be. the BEST think right here is you are saying this, and you want change. You can do this. It is not an easy road. Don't beat yourself up about the past, something you cant change. there is truly something good in everything. I am going to use an example since I know you have 2 great kids you love dearly. Remember this, as this is something I always say to myself, without your wife you would not have your 2 miracles. There is no time limit on someone's personal journey and there WILL be ups and downs. look around you, try to be come aware and inspired. make some time for just you daily even if it is minutes...without distractions.