Originally Posted by
irish_2003
i usually take weekends of to rest, get extra sleep, and grow...i'm kinda in a funk emotionally right now and visualizing ending it all...too much time to think about life and stuff...other than work, gym, boards, i have no more life...no true friends...i don't want anything more from life except to experience the one true emotion i've never felt my entire life...i wanna know what it feels like to be truly loved...i know people like me and are interested in me and my life, but that's not the same thing...if i were to take a several day hiatus or disappear from everyone and everything who would really care that's in my life? they'd be more worried about how it affected them instead of the reasons i left and how i felt...the only thing stopping me from ending it is that i don't know what happens on the flipside and that frightens me more than living, but not by much...
so, all that said...i might start doing really lazy cardio on the weekends...not trying to burn calories...just trying to burn and occupy myself and time so i'm not thinking so much...