TweetI do have to say that I've made some bad choices in my life the last few weeks and I have been trying very hard to repair the damage that has been done but right now there has been a lot more downs than ups in this process. This is why I haven't been on much and contributing lately. One of the things I have been working on is spending more less time staring at my phone so that I can be present for the ones I love. While this is not the root of my current problems, this is something I have wanted to change because less than two weeks ago my wife commented "look at the three of us. We have been sitting here for two hours without saying a word to each other because we all online doing our own thing." That's not what I want our lives to be so from that night forward I had started to consciously spend less time on my phone. Then this other issue reared its ugly head and this movement was lost in the chaos. Last night while laying in bed and trying for the umpteenth time to sort through this mess I had created one of the positive things I tried to bring up was that I wanted us to break this cycle and after dinner needed to be family activity time. Whether it was playing a game, going outside to do anything or even just reading together(my son is 7), I wanted us fully interacting. A while back I had made a comment to my wife "did you find the cure for cancer in that phone yet?" Because she would be on the phone from 5:30pm until after I was fast asleep. At one point during this recent turmoil I wanted to change my comment to "do you think you're going to find the answer for happiness somewhere in that phone?" Or "do you think Being on they phone for 6 or 7 hours is really helping our situation?" But I'm Not going to make it like I'm trying to turn this around on her when I am to blame for situation.
One last thing; it is better to be upfront and honest about things that in your eyes are harmless than to be deceitful because once the deception is out in the open, the deceit ruins all creditability.


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