Thank you all for the concerns and nice posts.
i have had a ton of close friends who just came to me with offerings of help. I feel very fortunate.

i am now 17 weeks out. 20 weeks out I made drastic changes to my cycle and it also gave me very good results.
I went from 242 down to 236 in 236
i feel that ever since week 20 when I started to play heavier dosages that I had constant pressure. Stress perhaps.
a huge panic attack 3 weeks ago, and then Thursday night ALL night I endured severe acute attack.

for now I have meds. But I won't take them unless I need them.

monday I will go request full panel blood work to capture cholesterol, blood pressure, enzymes imbalances and so one.

i am taking 4 weeks off. Cutting down in Half my intake and continue prep.

i won't let this monster take control of my life.
i am young, healthy above all.

b2j